Milk

I ain't the same nigga that I once was

I lost my fucking mind and then I fell in love

I did a bunch of drugs, because I couldn't sleep

I lost a couple months, I chipped my fucking teeth

And there's a couple women, and they know some things

About lies that I done told and shit that I done said

And niggas that I robbed, so I'm real paranoid

I have voices in my head

Hi, my name is Merlyn, I just applied for food stamps

I just moved to California, with my boy band

Dropped out of a good school, hippies in my commune

I left 'fore the rent was due, used to want a briefcase

And a short commute, used to wanna sell coke

And whip an Audi coupe, crazy if I did that

Wouldn't be talking to you

Walking through the pit falls of a college student

Crazy how you get them letters and that make you feel accepted

Til you walking 'round the campus and you the only African

Nobody with passion, just cats that take direction well

Take acid trips to find themselves, well

I gotta get better at being me

(Being who I am)

I gotta get better at everything

(Being who I am)

I just want a friend that I can hang out with

(Being who I am)

Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with

(Being who I am)

Ever since I moved out, I've been broke

Ever since I grew up, I've been ugly

Ooh, I need get me some dollar, dollar, dollar bills y'all

Ever since I left my momma house, I've been mad as hell at the world

Sometimes you don't gotta rhyme when you feel it

Sometimes I barely ever feel a fucking thang

Sometimes I wish that my fucking phone would fucking ring

And go off, and wake a nigga up

I'm used to being sad and I'm used to being down

I'm used to being used, I miss my boy being around

I gotta get better at being me

(Being who I am)

I gotta get better at everything

(Being who I am)

I just want a friend that I can hang out with

(Being who I am)

Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with

(Being who I am)

Droppin' all I got on this one day

I just wanna be somebody someday

Droppin' all I got on this one way

I just wanna be somebody someday

Droppin' all I got on this one day

I just wanna be somebody someday

Droppin' all I got on this one way

I just wanna be somebody someday

I gotta get better at being me

(Being who I am)

I gotta get better at everything

(Being who I am)

I just want a friend that I can hang out with

(Being who I am)

Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with

(Being who I am)

I'm trying to look for motivation of smaller things

But baby steps to my atonement when I foster dreams

I've been told I'm too transparent with my thoughts sometimes

So I wrote songs until they pass, and I can fall in line

I fell apart the moment that you thought you found yourself

Cause I knew at that point, I couldn't be in the equation anymore

But moving on with open, broken hearts

Will show you everything you need to see about yourself to start moving forward

So many things I wanna say that I'm not sure need to be known

But everybody swears they fucking know me

So why, don't I lay every card I'm holding on the table?

At that point I wonder what they'd show me

I almost lost my father, still surreal for me to think about

Considering how many of my friends have lost theirs

I never know if what I'm saying is the right thing

If not, I'm ready more than ever for the crosshairs

It's all fair when it's not you

Some people have angels, what if only shadows follow you?

And all the ghosts inside that seem to hollow you

The branches of the weeping willow start to swallow you

And then you realize you're exactly where you're supposed to be

The horizon clears, you wipe the tears

And all the skeletons are ready for your story