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[Verse 1]

As a child I felt lonely and helpless

Low cash from a neighborhood wealthless

I'll stick a wino, and rob him for his last penny

Happy days around my way we didn't find many

Momma said that I was outta line talkin smack

Extension cords to this young nigga's black back

A juvenile, thirteen, now I'm locked up

Scared to cry, I don't wanna get fucked up

Fifty push ups a strain on my young chest

I paint the pictures that I pose for a sleeveless

I see my momma only supervised when she cry

She said my baby brother's comin he aint far behind

Somebody tell me how I ended up like this

I wait for God to give me strength, I'ma fight this

I refuse to bend down cuz I'm young and wild

Do or die that's this young nigga's rough style

They'll never find me

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Searchin to find me [4X]

My soul will be free before they find me

[Verse 2]

I hit the street full grown, momma's gone now

Had a heart attack I'm living on my own now

My black boots and my state green all I own

And a burning desire for a microphone

I see my little man Tiah bless me wit a burner

Any coincidence I'm feeling like Nat Turner

Twenty stick ups in thirty days they see me comin

Everybody on the block duck and start runnin

A old lady told me baby boy calm down

But like in Vietnam war I got to bomb now

My cash was up a little somethin, somethin, takin shake

I blasted reddie at the weedgate and took his papes

Cuz I done came a long way, in a short time

And I'm willing to die tryin to get mine

Alotta niggas think I'm cool wit 'em, guess what

Them niggas in for a shock cuz I'm fucked up

You'll never find me

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[Verse 3]

I got a little crew now I'm selling weight

White mickeyed out Navigator, tight straight

I got the butter soft seats watch a video

Stag a lee, everybody in the city knows

I make my rounds and I'm checkin how my work's moving

Shit is picking up nice, life is improving

I got the baddest bird in Brooklyn, she six months

She keep a eye on my whole house, my youngsters

I got my honey on the side she don't know about

I'm on my way to see her now, I'm a blow her out

I pull up to see her standing in the door waiting

Shorty fine like a porn star masturbating

She said, "Daddy are you hungry, would you like to eat

Would you let me rub your back, can I kiss your feet"

I told her, "Baby make the bed cuz I need rest"

She sucked me down until I fell asleep, God bless

I see my momma with my eyes closed, kinda strange

Time to wake up and touch something, outta range

White clouds with the softness I hear the music

What the hell is going on here I'm 'bout to lose it

Momma why you talking to me like you right here

She said, "Son you outta focus now, come clear"

She said, "Your life'll be a milestone for everyone

Because your layin in the bed that you made son"

Look how they found me

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