Eleanor

i was wasted on the trigger

in the river i was waiting

i was wanting, never wanting

what i could not yet become

let the sea change let's remember

all the good i did the ending

was no more than spare repentance

this is nothing like my home

on the table i was ready

blood it glistened, gods they listened

running wild after chalice

just to let them take me on

see the whirling of the skylights

beasts surround me all around me

trains pull out from under mantles

just to listen with us all

and with colors captivating

Eleanor stood cold and waiting

she was bathing me in blessings

that confronted as i cried

see the whole of me igniting

clever hands with brushes biting

cross the river to the tower

with remains of every sacrifice inside

oh my precious daemon darlings

come to hold me death unfold me

color move me too the chambers

where i know i feel alive

dance in circles atop grasses

crossing over lo, behold her i

n the places of our reaches

where the beasts upset their lives

but the water ceased to bargain

we are stranded where we've landed

break the circle take us back

to where we feel we need to be

watching careful the completion

of the cosmos where the zygote

sleeping sound now that i've found

my dearest friend outside my door

bound for new life, masons thunder

east is over, west is under

found the hum of drag race runners

comfort flaring in my sheets

now we'll head back up to Monmouth

where the kids are seldom honest

cross the borders, past the train yards

i will enter just to breathe

but the time will come for lovers

we will cradle one another

we will wander past the distance

for our many mouths to meet