Cursed Night

The days are blending together

Pretending like I don't notice

Drowning in mental fog so thick

My hands might close where my throat is

Not gonna rap that "I'm cursed"

My words got heavy

And sure enough the steady ebb-and-flow of life subsided

But I wasn't ready

Last night, I thought up a song but I'm too wired to hum it

Inspired sight, like tunnel-vision on the life I got from it

Not tired yet, right? Hah

It's fun, I'll tell ya that much

Adventures oughta be remembered as such

But, I'm not well

Not today, not tomorrow

These souls insidе my pocket are just sanity I borrow

"Sayonara" to the sorrow of еternity alone? Yeah, right

Part of the joke is that it's all that I've known

It's justified — can't help that I romanticize your concern

Now I can fantasize forever if you never say the words "Goodbye"

This tainted mindset really must go free

Finding someone so fuckin' wonderful when I'm just so... me

Searching by city light

You'll never find me

Running through a cursed night

"Do you have a death wish?"

Shut the lid tight, it's complicated

Could ya not look inside, it's complicated

Somehow, I'm just a page in, but I've cried and I've grown

To shut away the conversation of my "highs-and-lows"

Jibun no me de mietai no?

Kono zetsubou no utsukushi sa

Laid back in the cracks of my past, it's kinda funny

Got sick of the tricking myself into thinking that others would only run from me

Because, as you know, I'm Death

You heard about me?

I'm kinda famous, now it's awkward...

But welcome to my constant state of mind

Like, could you knock first?

Hanasenai kotoba

Min'na no shinpai goto wa

Mimi ni tsunagaranai

Why is it every time your kindness is making my chest unbearably tight?

But, not for the first time

A terrible night for a curse

But don't you worry, 'cause it hurts fine

Drunk, lost, CalliP

Wandering Rengoku-shi

Enlighten me — is this what they call a "sunk cost fallacy"?

Frightening, in spite of things I want tossed my way

I'm looking everywhere at once and months are passing like days

"By myself" is just better. I know I say that a lot

But if somebody holds you back, then you cannot become God

Lost in the night, nasakenai

Hostile, hostage or free

These childish eyes will only show my mind what I wanna see

Searching by city light

You'll never find me

Running through a cursed night

"Do you have a death wish?"

Shut the lid tight, it's complicated

Could ya not look inside, it's complicated

Somehow, I'm just a page in, but I've cried and I've grown

To shut away the conversation of my "highs-and-lows"

Jibun no me de mietai no?

Kono zetsubou no utsukushi sa

Yeah, jibun no me de mietai no?

Kono zetsubou...

Jibun no me de mietai no?

Wanna see it?

Fine, this time, look for yourself