Unalive

It starts with just a thought within

A wish that rode on mellow wind

Begins and ends with hello and goodbye

I’ll take a chance to see what we could be

The past in distant memory

To another world

At last I’ll grasp that promised life

But the high is over sooner than it began

Stay alive and sober, all a part of the plan

I arrived a soldier in a far-off land

With a four-leaf clover in this scarred right hand

You can

Over and over, rewrite

Felt the closure with every night

So you’re gonna go and let it all melt away into that formless storm of white?

On the winds of desperation

Flying for all this world to see

Though I make do all despite it

Fate is hard to hide it’s

Always been decided for me

Numbing pain is numbing happiness

Something anyone can find

Pushing on

For resolve

That is mine

Alone

It’s hopeless, though this soul can say I tried

To move forward, the lore is I must

Be void inside

Recalling all the days we met

A place that I belonged, and yet

My world was built of walls of endless height

But it was melody that set me free

This world ain’t seen the best of me

I'm invincible

For just one moment, I can fight

Not hesitant, fast-paced hot to cold

I found a present, past, future in store being sold

Unpleasant

Resentment, the more you're told

Deep inside of the binds of stories of old

Burning through every page

Keep you learning to envy the stage

All the while, with a vile and discerning smile

I'm planning how I'm gonna break the cage

On winds of desperation

Flying for all this world to see

Though I make do all despite it

Fate is hard to hide, it’s

Always been decided for me

Numbing tears and heartache, sorrow, hate

Running endlessly through time again

Still deprived

Unalive

Like I’ve always been

My home

A place I’ll never know until I'm satisfied

To move forward, the lore is I must

Be void inside

The soul is divided

Colder inside, the dice

Roll is decisive

Must have it nice

A gorgeous device

To trick and entice, it’s got a price

Playing it straight

The cards I create

A heart’s nothing but dead weight

Diamonds or spades

The lies and charades

They never gonna change

Lie to myself

Reject any and all help

Betting all of my chips, let ’em fall to hell

Blood, sweat cannot stop the thoughts invading

Nobody’s waiting, after all

Is said and done

There’s nowhere left to run

Forget the Sun

Rest in peace and appease the beast

Never thought I’d beg the beats to cease

Talking head rotting I don’t gotta be whole

Don’t want a dead body, don’t need no soul

> Take control

Our world is turning once again

For that reason I still sing

And we’ve shed so many tears by now

Though I’d never dare to change a thing

Days of laughing and crying, feeling like dying

All became a part of me

We won’t have to wait for long

Waiting from beyond

What more could there be?

Numbing pain is numbing happiness

Something anyone can find

Pushing on

For resolve that’s truly mine

On the winds of desperation

Flying for all this world to see

Though I make do all despite it

Fate is hard to hide

I won’t let it decide who I’ll be

Numbing pain is numbing happiness

Though you know it’s all worth fighting for

Every means

To an end

Is an open door

Your home

Is more than just a place you're never satisfied

I’ll move forward toward something rewarding

By your orders, I’ll never be soaring

I'm ignoring the lore 'cause I won’t

Be void inside

Mou modorenai

In death, I'm somehow more alive