Stove Lighter

Kids from my high school still ignore me

When they see me busking in the city

And I think they’re going somewhere

To take horse tranquilizer and act like they’re too cool to be there and

They’ll still call me when they wanna get high

Those I look up to, look down on me

Or maybe it’s just my crippling anxiety?

Because it’s been happening a lot lately

I think it’s got something to do with you, but you make me pretty happy

I’m just whining about the same shit as yesterday

And I would sneak him into my mother’s house

Where he would draw the things I’d talk about

And we only ever made out

And listened to Tigers Jaw and UV Race, yeah, it was pretty grouse

But I gave him my old phone and he moved away

Now I read my text books like The Bible

There’s something about truth that makes existence bearable

We’re sitting ‘round the kitchen table

It kinda feels like family but a little more unstable

And we still have to light the stove with a lighter

Yeah, we still have to light the stove with a lighter

Still have to light the stove with a lighter

It’s kinda like I almost want you to understand this like the first time you were here

It’s kinda like I almost want you to understand me like the first time we were here

And all this time it made sense to me why life was so unfair

Because the universe don’t know and the universe don’t care

It took years to figure out everyone else had shit on their mind

And the darkness that lives inside of me, looks exactly like you sometimes

Still have to light the stove with a lighter

I’ll sit alone in my bedroom

Hope they can’t hear me in the next room

Always alone in my bedroom

Hoping no one can hear me