Squander

I can confess but believe me it's true

You walk all day in a fog of abuse

When you see, we will be, at the front of the pack

I know you won't care about what we lack

I wish that we could all see

How futile is our crying

We'll sit and watch as all our seeds

Will grow and bloom into nothing

The soil is putrid and diseased

Was it worth all this fighting?

I'm just the sum of my bad deeds

They'll swell and sprout into...

Sprout into hate, it was no mistake

You will find me drinking at the bottom of the lake

I can't be sure of your intentions to love

Broken, afraid

Strength is hard to regain

I can't be saved, i'll end up starving alone

End of my days, you'll find me praying for grace

I wish that we could all see

How futile is our crying

We'll sit and watch as all our seeds

Will grow and bloom into nothing

The soil is putrid and diseased

Was it worth all this fighting?

I'm just the sum of my good deeds

They'll swell and sprout into nothing

I know i'm not okay

But i'm not afraid, i'm not afraid

I see my reflection

It isn't clear, i'm not really here

I know i'm not the same

And i want to change, how can i change?

I'm numb to everyone

I swear to god, i'm at the very end of my rope

I'm fading so fast

I've lost who i am

Sure, i'm still here

But i can't comprehend

Why i just can't be happy

Even though everything seems so complete in harmony

Something is not right

Something's here with me

You reek of deception

The smell is rancid, how can one stand it?

Your tongue is running rampant, lies so stagnant

We are all the same

A crowd of sinning saints

Show some restraint

Yeah, we are all the same

Crying to be bathed

Rotting youth of today

We can't be saved, beating the corpse of a dead saint

I know this scares you to hear, so blatantly spoken

With lives so broken, it seems sure to me

You won't be saving me

Who are you my friend?

Who was the one who let you in?

I don't recognize your face

It's so faint, another time, another place

Who are you my dear?

Who you are, i fear

Who is this person in the mirror?

How did you, end up here?

(you've planted this seed in me.

It's bloomed into such hatred

For your wretched excuse for importance)

Who are you to say?

Who are you to lay? (with someone else)

Who are you to love?

Who are you to cry?

Who are you to die?

(am i any lesser of a person

Because i don't live and breathe

In the same sin and filth as you?

I've found my own disease.)