Circuitry

Today I woke to find the world I once knew is gone

I'm at a loss for words today

The lines are down, I'm not answering

Disconnect and rewire everything

I'll sit and recount all the situations I could have changed

But the hardest part is realizing that I was the problem

I can't change. I'm sorry but it's true.

Don't put your hope in me.

I exist for the most part but mainly in my head

So unfortunately I can't save you

I'm a sinking ship. Cut ties now and save yourself

Make a choice. It's me or you. I promise nothing but a bitter end

When it's said and done we all move on but right now I'm drowning in my head

Everything I love I push away

And all the things that hurt me I hold close to my heart

This is one bad dream and I can't wake up

How the hell did I get here?

So here I am yet again

Another day the same as before

It never changes and I have no clue what I'm looking for

I thought it would fall into place

I thought I would stop questioning but I can't

I'm sorry this is the curse that follows me.

One more day and it will all be fine.

Who am I'm kidding? I won't do anything

I can't change. I'll try my hardest

But this is the best version that you'll get of me

I'm not hopeless; I know exactly where (who) I am

And that's the problem, but I can't (wont) lie to myself again