Agoraphobic

I’ve become agoraphobic

Confined to the cells I’ve built inside my head

I’m never going on the outside ever again

The sun is shining through the curtains

Oh, it’s a beautiful day outside I’m sure

But I’m just gonna have to trust you

And take you at your word

Because it’s comfortable in here

Just me and debilitating fear

My self-security blanket warms

As I know the end is near

So please don’t take my pain away

It’s all I got to keep me warm and safe

Armageddon’s approaching, it’s fair to say

So, board up the windows and lock the doors

I’m not going outside anymore

Unless I’m dragged kicking

And screaming, I’m staying indoors

There’s a clock upon the nightstand

Programmed to notify me of another day

The weather really doesn’t matter when it’s always cold and gray

I hit the snooze while I’m sleeping

Un-rested, adjust myself accordingly

Pace back and forth three times rinse

Repeat, scrub until it’s clean

But it’s comfortable in here

Just me and debilitating fear

By self-help medicating my future’s looking fucking clear

I’ve lost my mind this time it’s somewhere I swear

I’ve lost my mind this time, I can’t find it anywhere

So please don’t take my pain away