Pity Party

I woke up

In a new bed today

It’s my own, I guess

But it doesn’t feel that way

I'm so tired of the jet lag

I thought it was a hoax

This grown up shit is getting old

And I miss my mom

She thinks I'm doing well

She tells me that I'm better off by myself

That I don’t need anyone

But really

I'm scared of being lonely

My clothes are always dirty

I can’t get enough coffee

What can you do?

There’s dirt on my white shoes

I live in a living room

And I'm so scared to call you

But I'm throwing a party

And no it’s not a pity party

If you don’t like it just leave, I don’t need your pity

I just want a party

And I know

I seem like a lot right now

Both my socks and my pride are nowhere to be found

I guess this is just 20

I always feel like a joke

And it gets worse or that’s what I'm told

Oh I miss my friends

They pray I'm doing well

Maybe one day I’ll be better off by myself

And I won’t need anyone

But for now

I'm scared of being lonely

My clothes are always dirty

I can’t get enough coffee

What can you do?

There’s dirt on my white shoes

I live in a living room

And I'm so scared to call you

But I'm throwing a party

And no it’s not a pity party

If you don’t like it just leave, I don’t need your pity

I just want a party

(Party, I just want a party

Just want, just want

I just want a party

Just want, just want

I just want a party)