Johnny Moribund

I had a dream

Of rebirthing and growing as a team

But I've been shown

It's easier to pack your things and go

Because I know I'm pitiful

Like I know you're beautiful

But you'd thank me for my presence

You're welcome

I wish I'd held you closer and then some

Maybe then I needn't regret

That joy unmixed with sorrow is suspect

I said I'm sorry, you needn't worry

I'm sick of playing Johnny Moribund

Each day I wake to my impeccable mistake

And wonder why I pulled the plug

See the water spiral out

Shed my suit and wring it out

Ride the spiral to the flow

Shed my skin and let it go

But what I want is all I had

'Cause that's my pattern and always has been

And what I need is not a lot

Just to be glad of what I've got

A simple trick if you can get it right

And I'm still practicing...

A wiser man would fight back, return fire

But I put my tired brain out for the night

I wake up in the daylight with sore eyes

Startled by your heartbeat

Well, goodbye, love...

You went on fishing, I came in reeling

Headbutting concrete just to make a dent

It's so ironic that now you've caught it

You hurl it back 'cause it don't measure up

I said I'm sorry, you needn't worry

I'm sick of playing Johnny Moribund

Close your fragile petals to the rain

God knows I'm guilty of the same

Two lilies rooted in a stained bathtub

Each day I wake to my impeccable mistake

And wonder why I pulled the plug.