Pamela

Close my eyes and you’re still with me

In the trees with the locusts buzzing, but I

Never can keep my eyes closed long enough

And no amount of dreaming can bring you back, so

I can’t remember if I told you I loved you that morning

Out on the lake, you called for your mother and my

Heart broke into a million pieces

A kind of darkness you just never get used to

So, I stare at the lake

Biding my time

Waiting to die

Wonder if all this pain I carry is

Strong enough to lift your body from the water

And make you be alive again

I think stupid things like this all the time, but

I would gladly trade my life for yours

If only the water could bargain

If only they had been watching

I can’t turn back, only face forward, but

I would gladly trade my life for yours

If only the water could bargain

If only they had been watching

I can’t turn back, only face forward

Open my eyes now, task in front of me

And your voice is always calling, but I

Can’t control the rage inside of me

Spill their blood ‘till the world is done with me

I want you to know right now that I loved you

When you left it almost killed your mother, but

Something inside me propels me forward

A kind of rage you just never get used to

So, I stare at the lake

Biding my time

Waiting to die

And everything that I touch is dead

Everything that I wanted is gone

Nothing before me now but pain

Nothing before me but pain

And your voice

Your voice, of course

Someday I’ll reach you

In my dreams I can reach you

So, I stare at the lake

Biding my time

Waiting to die

Cutting the meat

Forest of meat

Spill their blood

Spilling their blood

And resurrect my son

Resurrect my son

Stare at the lake

Biding my time

Waiting to die