Collapse

Back-pedaling into the black

But I can still make out the figures

That will threaten my well-being

The wind will rise and fall

But never sway from side to side

Progression halted

Encapsulating the fluid weave of death

Like a garden that contains all of its arrested offspring

We’re afraid to force our legs to break free from the earth

And take the first step towards our insecurity

Sleep away your selfishness

Slip into collapse

A still-like state of disregard

From which you can’t fall back

You never fully moved me

I’ve been embedded in the dust

And my mind has been ravaged by war

Pray for farewell as if I was yours to lose

I would love to love you, if you were someone else

So forgive me for being unresponsive

I’m sure it’s hard to train your ears

To hear me crying out for help

With my lips sewn shut by the stitches of my own indecision

So I’ll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief

I bite my tongue

Fill my mouth with blood

And swallow enough to kill me

Before I’m forced to lose more sleep

So I’ll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief

I bite my tongue

Fill my mouth with blood

And swallow enough to kill me

I would love to love you

If you were someone else

Am I fit to walk alone again

Or will you save me from myself?

Breathe life into me

Be all that I can see

Or carry on without me

And just know I wished you well