Compass

The weight came and went and took my will to live

Spoiled by defeat, forced to drown in what's left of me

That's when breathing became routine

And I could feel myself fading

No direction, I am a compass

Constantly spinning

Constantly searching for the end

Never reaching our destination

But the goal was never when

Or where

Or who

It was only you

I appeared in your arms as if I had been born there

You promised you'd never let me go

But I don't know what I believe anymore

Affection allowed me to let the light in

The fear made me whole again

Help me rebuild my broken bones

Help me regain my sanity

But with caution always present

Our pasts manifest themselves

And we act as if this is what we deserve

But I refuse to fail again

I'd force my ghost to write your name in the flowers on my grave

I watched the world give up on me

I used to spend my nights praying for air in my bloodstream

Now I long to feel your breath pass throughout my arteries

The goal was never when

Or where

Or who

It was only you

I appeared in your arms as if I had been born there

You promised you'd never let me go

But I don't know what I believe anymore

Fill me with your faith and let me leave

I'm scratching at my skin to take my mind

Off the absence we've created

The lines blur together like the veins in my arms

And I wish I wasn't so alone

You are the difference between hell and home