Used To The Fall

Trying to stand here

Pretending that

I'm really okay when inside

I know all the hope is gone

Is like sitting all alone

At 5am in a hotel room

When all the coke is gone

I hold on to pain sometimes

Lit up by the fade of my fire

I'm too old to be chasing these highs

When first line is the only good ride

Sooner or later all the curtains gon' close

And the stage gon' fade to black coal

Everything that you ever dreamed of

Will be running right out the back door

Wake up at sundown

Hands up and get gunned down

By myself I'm my own worst enemy

A victim to the chains of my own stupidity

One day life's bitter

Next day tastes sweet

Maybe I hurt myself 'cause I'd rather feel pain

Than feel nothing at all

I hate coming down, touching my feet to the ground

But man I'm so used to the fall

Don't put your trouble on me

I got enough of that weighing on me

Already got enough demons I feed

Man leave me alone to just breathe

I hate coming down

Touching my feet on the ground

But man I'm used to the fall

Life seems like it's just about me

Losing everything that I never

Wanted in the first place

Till I slip and get attached

Then the devil takes it back

And it hurts in the worst way

I've been stabbed in the back so much

That I can't never trust nobody

I've been cut to the heart so many times

That I can't love nobody

Maybe I'm damaged goods

Half the time misunderstood

All the shoulds, all the coulds

Can't stop the Hatchet when it hits the wood

You can talk up fit

You can cuss, you can spit

You can dig my grave

But you ain't putting no chains on a man

That done spent life inside this cage