Shattered

The only thing I want is peace, but all I feel is ashamed

I've got these sick, sad thoughts and all they do is replay

There's no way this is who I'm meant to be

I want my mind to be released, I want my demons abandoned

They always said it was a shame

I'd watch my body rot any given day of the week

My soul has finally lost any shot of feeling fine again

I see nothing the same, the dark's here to stay

But I'm no more a victim than anyone

Who feels like me, don't I deserve peace?

It's goddamn hard when you think it

Never mattered if you'd wake up alive

I often wish I could erase my mind

No more a puppet to all this pain

So close to finally feeling serenity

I shouldn't be on this leash

I will be free, I will decide my own fate

I feel the cold wind on my back

The shackles have been released

Let me out into the world

'Cause all I ever want is to be free

I hear the sky calling out my name

You may be you, but I'm not me

Let me out into the world, deliberately

They always said it was a shame

Why can't you just get over it?

It doesn't work that way, this is a sickness

No more preventable than death, I was made like this

Tear out my eyes 'cause

There's nothing to see

I find myself in my head more often than I'm out

This is a sickness

This is a sickness

The thought of joy just hurts me more

And every move feels like a chore

But that's not me, I want release

They say the pain is temporary

They say the feeling isn't bound to last

We cling to light but often find it submits to dark

Dead from the start, I was dead from the fucking start

Maybe I know that I'm not perfect

But I know I don't deserve this prison

That's just who I am, and I can never lose hold

Never lose hold again

For once, I'd love to smile

And for once to finally mean it

I don't want to have to lie

It's always looming, it's always there

Always growing ever present in my nightmares

It's always looming, another year

Cutting through me, it's gone or I disappear

It's not fair to have to live this way

I see people shrug it off

But it consumes and corrupts me

I'm fucking begging on my hands and knees

I should be long released

Why would you keep that from me?

I feel the cold wind on my back

The shackles have been released

Let me out into the world

'Cause all I ever want is to be free

I hear the sky calling out my name

You may be you, but I'm not me

Let me out into the world, deliberately

I feel the cold wind on my back

The shackles have been released

Let me out into the world

'Cause all I ever want is to be free

I never wanted to live like this

Separated from all the rest

But that's just who I am and I can

Never lose hold, never lose hold again