You're Not Here

I wish you knew the person I am

The way I hold my heart in my hands

The way I sing like it's the air that I breathe

People say it's everything

I whistle still, crack my knuckles too

'Cause these are the two things you

You taught me to do

They get on my mother's nerves

Maybe 'cause I learned it from you

I hope one day there's more for me to choose

Until that day, I wish this to be true

When I run, I'm running to your arms

And when I sing, I'm singing to your heart

I feel you near in my moments of fear

But when I open up my eyes, I see it clear

It's only in my dreams that you are here

You're not here

Did you know I dropped out of school?

Nineteen years old with a whole lot to prove

Carried on through my doubts

All to figure out who I was meant to be

Ten years later, twenty-nine years old

Got my poor heart broken, did it over the phone

Was in a hotel room and I was all alone

I was alone

I wanted to run, run into your arms

And cry while you held me to your heart

Feel you near in my moment of fear

But I opened up my eyes and wiped the tears

It was only in my dreams that you were here

And now you're missing out

On how I get to live the life

That I forever and a day had dreamed about

And it's a shame you won't be there

For the joy I've yet to share

Because in spite of you, I'm here

Oh, yes, I'm here

And I'm in love and it's for real

And you'll never get to meet them

But I truly hope you're happy where you are

It's unfortunate we end before we start

I hope you know I'll always love you from afar

But I can't ignore the part

That wants to run, run into your arms

And sing until it pierces through your heart

Feel you near in my moments of fear

I know that it's a dream and you're not here

I'm holding onto dreams 'cause you're not here

You'll never be here