Psycho

Tuesday, 23rd of January, 2018

I'm here with David

This is our first session

We're just gonna talk about your background

Where you're from, any issues you've been dealing with

So, where should we start?

Look

Stop all the pain

How do you stop all the pain, huh?

I used to hear a voice when I was praying

But nowadays, I don't even wanna be saved

Nah, fuck that, I don't wanna be saved

I was born to be wild, I don't wanna be tamed

Talent's in my blood and I don't wanna be vain

But if I'm a psycho, then I don't wanna be sane

I used to dream of this shit when I was hopping on train

So, so bad, I used to want all the fame

My ex-girl want to shoot a cover for Vogue

Which is pretty ironic 'cause she's top of the range

If any one of you take a shot on a track

My niggas come back and put a shot in your frame

Easy as the alphabet

Three G's in the ring, call me Alvarez

My teacher used to say I need counseling

Couldn't stop asking me, "What do you feel?"

There's so many old scars that they wanna reveal

We got off on the wrong foot 'cause I don't want him to heal, nah

But if you're looking for a psycho, you got one

I thought I had a screw loose but I lost one

Ninety-nine problems, money, it is not one

My currency's Kenyan, that's in it for the long run, huh

Tears on a pillow

Bro, I shed so many tears on a pillow

I used to tell my teachers that nobody gets it

I don't know Clarke but I know that I'm a Kidult

'Cause my mummy ain't been home, miss thinks I'm involved

Blame my environment, it made me a sicko

Furthermore, I should bring that bitch down to Streatham

And then make her spend a day in a veil like a widow

Kiddo, we seen swords longer than a limo

My bros are blacksmiths like Jaden and Willow

Man, there's weapons over here, we're reppin' over here

We're from the Southside but it's Streatham over here

No telling if you're selling, hold the wettin' over here

Get him over here, who the fuck is checkin' over here?

Most my niggas are the ones applying pressure over here

Fuck assault, I can get a nigga peppered over here, whoa

We wanted more, then some food on the strip or moving a brick

My niggas went to school with the rich and we were broke

Hiding crow in a Rubicon drink

Which is funny 'cause that's how we put food in the fridge

So, who am I?

Someone tryna live his best life

I just wanna take a pretty woman for a test drive

If I bring her to my room and I press, I

Guarantee she gonna see the force like an ex-wife

People tell me I'm a little bit barmy

For my army, I need a bottle of Bacardi

If it's me and a pouch with my dargy

Shawty, you're seeing two stars in the party

Fuck what you heard

I'm a top boy and I ain't giving man a turn

I don't wanna know a pretty woman wanna flirt

Learned you can judge a nigga by the women that he curves

I love this game, I ain't lost focus

I'm a hitmaker, if you haven't noticed

I could be the rapper with the message like you're hoping

But what's the point in me being the best if no one knows it?

Brother I'm a careful, humble, reckless, arrogant, extravagant

Nigga probably battlin' with manic depression

Man, I think I'm going mad again

It's like I'm happy for a second then I'm sad again

And to my fans, the reason I could get to this

You're my drug, the instrumental my therapist

Man, I need some therapy

My girl saying that she'll never leave

I'm scared she gonna find a better me

Deeper insecurities, like

What if I don't leave a legacy?

Money, why they check for me?

Mummy lost respect for me

I wish we could be together but that ain't how life works

I used to cry about my dad until my fucking eyes burnt

Nose running, you don't know nothing

Before I put a penny on the table, I provided for my family

Held my mother's hand through the agony, hey

You ever fall 'sleep 'cause you don't wanna be awake?

In a way, you're tired of the reality you face?

If you're thinking 'bout doing it

Suicide doesn't stop the pain, you're only moving it

Lives that you're ruining

Thoughts of a world without you in it, hiding

I ain't psycho but my life is