Prisoner of Shame

As woke up in a nightmare

I can't stop this noise

And the fear it is leaking

With the poison of joy

Reaping hell with my system

The memory of the high it stays

Will I remember this tomorrow

As my mind fades to grey?

Now you know I spent my life

Always searching for the blame

It isn't easy

I'm a prisoner of shame

I never show my face

And I never state my name

I'm so restrained

I'm a prisoner of shame

Now I guess I got a witness

Cause I wrote all the guilty lines

So the god of clean has shot me

Lost my name and said he must decline

All I need is just a little so I can ease the pain

Ain't no number for my sorrow it will only drive me insane

Now you know I spent my life

Always searching for the blame

It isn't easy

I'm a prisoner of shame

I never show my face

And I never state my name

I'm so restrained

I'm a prisoner of shame

I'm a prisoner, a prisoner of shame

As I woke from the nightmare

I could feel the release in me

And the gods have chosen, to declare

Now they say I've been wasting my life

And those were the words that would cut like a knife.