To Be Completely Honest

To be completely honest

The picture isn’t clear to me yet

You insisted that you owed explanations

While I was patiently enjoying the debt

And when I think about it

I’m not even sure if I mind

You were the fading signal that would slip through the static

For a station that I never could find

So you don’t need to say a word right now

All your reasons would just flicker in the darkness

Maybe that’s why nobody knows how

To be completely honest

To be completely honest

It feels like you’re still in the room

From the bracelets that you left on the nightstand

To the crows in the yard each afternoon

And I just can’t get off it

I haven’t been sleeping at all

Some questions weave themselves into the fabric

And some are what compel me to call

But then I never know where I should start

And a record of the symptoms is all I have accomplished

I never really thought it’d be so hard

To be completely honest

To be completely honest

I think I know how it ends

The universe continues expanding

While we discuss particulars of just being friends

And maybe that makes everything okay

Remembering the defect at the heart of every promise

Well maybe that’s the only way

To be completely honest