Cold, Dark Winter

I take a breath and try to recollect

Who I am and where I’ve been

I don’t recognize my own face

I don’t even remember my name

What doesn’t kill you makes you weaker

When you’re hooked up to synthetic machines

Just so you can breathe

Am I sinking or just dreaming?

Trapped in a vessel going nowhere

I try to reach you, but no words escape

Could you blame me if I felt like giving up?

Tell me this cold, dark winter won’t last forever

The cynic in me is screaming to pull the plug and leave

To decease must be better than purgatory

The cynic in me is telling you to leave

But I can’t justify the end of life with no goodbye

It was just like a dream when I saw you at my bed

Felt your hand latching on, but no grip could be given back

I see her in my room crying tears for my endless sleep

I’d trade places, embrace it so you wouldn’t face it alone

Because I am

Trapped in a vessel going nowhere

I try to reach you, but no words escape

Could you blame me if I felt like giving up?

Tell me this cold, dark winter won’t last forever

Tell me this cold, dark winter won’t last forever

Leave me to rot in this hospital

What a burden I must be

I don’t blame you if you leave

The cynic in me is screaming to pull the plug and leave

I feel a hand reach into my dream pulling me from purgatory