6 Feet With The Pain

There is something that’s inside of me

Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep

Dancing demons under eyelids

Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days

You don’t understand my struggles

Don’t pretend that you’re me

You’ve been buying a new necklace

When there’s a noose on my neck

Writing down all of my problems

Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of

I admit that I have messed up

Something’s causing all this pain

Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up

Don’t lie to me, I hate that

I’m aware of all my faults

And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it

Pills been pretty numbing

Been out of my mind

Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it

Ruins all my friendships

I have tried everything now

Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane

I think that

To say that it’s a little too late

And I just

Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day

Where I will feel okay

Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again

I been alone in my bed

I've had a few dreams about you

But they're all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest

Engrave your name in my flesh

So I can’t forget if I tried to

You're gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing

You don’t wanna listen

You got feelings of denial

Another pot to piss in

Feel like I should start to fight more

I don’t need to be religious baby

You know what I stand for

Ashes burn my eyes sore

Anxious I can’t breathe

I'm getting nauseous turn the lights out

Please don’t ever speak to me

Don’t act like you got time now

I'm fighting with myself

I'm out of luck is this my karma

I can barely talk I'm scared of speaking when I call her