Speck

You want me to explain

How I've been struggling

And how my self esteem

Has fallen out of bed

Inside I feel a mess

My thoughts betray me

I keep thinking time has passed

When the hour has stayed the same

I am fucking low

And it hurts far too much to be dead

And you're so beautiful

And I'm nothing more than a speck

I'm starting to feel small

'Cause you're much bigger than me

I watched how you grew tall

While sitting in your chair

My heart keeps acting up

It's pretty scary

Am I really what you want

I wish I didn't care

Please don't get me wrong

But somehow it's beginning to hurt

I just don't think it's fair

How you silently speak through my words, my words

I think I've said too much

I feel so emotional

I'm so stupid it must make you sick

To even believe in me

Are you even there

Have you been feeling low?

Are you weaker than you will admit?

I think you're beautiful

But one day my face you'll forget

'Cause I'm nothing more than a speck

I'm seeing you for the first time

For the first time

You're seeing me for the last time

For the last time