Drained Out

A disappearing smile across a face where love once grew

I left it all behind for the chance of something new

I've seen what happens when all the love drains out

I've seen what's left of a love stained in doubt

I thought I couldn't leave everything behind

But I've come so far

It's never rung more true

That "you can't miss what you forget"

I could always look back and say that I've had better times, easier times

And everything was drenched in so much hope

But that lie only stretches out so far

The reality will only stretch so far

All those forced smiles and torrid long goodbyes

It was all that we had, it was all just dying out

I thought I couldn't leave everything behind

But I've come so far

I thought this would get harder

But it's getting easier with every step I take

I was dragging my heels until my feet fell off

Just to stand in front of you

Bite my fingernails down to the knuckles

And force that smile you'd seen too many times before

You held my hand, but it wasn't the same

I woke up next to you, but it wasn't the same

We kissed, but it wasn't the same