My White Elephant

The Trees are up

The lights are glowing

The gifts are wrapped

And now it's finally snowing

But all the mistletoe and cheer,

They only serve to make it clear

That I'm a widower tonight

Because the former you has died

And now there's nothing left to beat inside my chest

And all I feel is sadness at my best, so

This Christmas all I want is my heart back

It's so hard having to live when I know that

I never quite had yours to call my own

And every heart is light

(I hear you're happy)

But mine is missing

(I always knew it would be)

And now I'm forced to fight

(Or at least to try)

Through all the reminiscing

(Of years gone by)

Remember those starry nights?

The angels etched in white..

All those gifts we'd tear into..

Well, this will be the first one

Spent without you, so

This Christmas all I want is my heart back

It's so hard having to live when I know that

I never quite had yours to call my own

So if it's all right with you

Then what I'd like to do

Is just reclaim

What became

An empty lump of coal

To match the empty soul

I knew you'd give to me,

The day you'd opt to leave

But if you don't miss me

Then it should be easy

It's a shame how quickly

You forgot what we could be

This Christmas all I want is my heart back

It's so hard having to live when I know that

I never quite had yours to call my own