For All We Are

It's as if my heart

And my body are separate

I've floated on these thoughts for a while now

And not a time have they connected

Or helped to reverse the person I'm becoming

In some ways you come alive

But in most ways it's numbing

I was slowly fading, afraid of giving up

Defending my mind, yet feeling overcome

And as I sit here hoping again

I know the Sun is setting

Hoping I could reverse time

But I know that won't be happening

As the light tries to escape

The canvas once again grows grey

And optimism fades away

It's all just so maddening

I'm too lost in a memory

With my head tucked in between my knees

While the echoes of eternity play the symphony of this lost soul

It's all just so maddening

When you know the cure to the disease that's spreading

But the medicines you just stop taking

You feel alone

You feel ashamed

You feel overcome

And you feel desperate

And at some point, you feel defeated

You feel all those things

But not a one has brought you out of your seat yet

And even with all that pain

Silence keeps its motionless hold

Even though my insides are screaming

I'll watch it all decompose

For all we are, we are not whole