Bleed

Something died inside of me that night when I just watched you bleed

I hope you know how much you mean, but I still have to let you know

Both of my hands are tied and I’m sorry you had to wait so long

I could have done better if I tried, and I just can’t convince myself I’m doing better than last night

Because I just lay awake in the dark and sat and listened to you cry

And I’ve never hated myself more and thats why

Something died inside of me that night when I just watched you bleed

I hope you know how much you mean, but I still have to let you know

I’m sorry

You know how I’m feeling because all I do is hold back and conceal things

So tell me why the fuck I’m not healing

I’m tired and I’m sick of this feeling

Like you said, I'm running away from every problem that’s just in my head

And I know they are

I held back and kept myself from telling you everything that I should have

But you’re here so far

I'll look down, to find no strength in myself to feel alive and to try and help

I'll hold you close, our empty bodies lie together in your bed

I tried my best to help you bloom

Just like those flowers that we grew from my arms, the ones that bled

I’m sorry

You know how I’m feeling because all I do is hold back and conceal things

So tell me why the fuck I’m not healing, I’m tired and I’m sick of this feeling

Something died inside of me that night when I just watched you bleed

I hope you know how much you mean, but I still have to let you know