Her.

I don't love you anymore

Since when?

Now, just now

I don't wanna lie and I can't tell the truth so, its over

It doesn't matter, I love you. None of it matters

I don't love you anymore

4Am in the morning

Contemplating on life

Maybe falling back from recording

Took me almost a week to even think about writing

Forcing myself to eat sometimes I think about dying

Maybe the worst thing I have ever felt

Every sear on my mommas shoulder was a cry for help

You wasn't there

How you think I was supposed to feel?

I never thought you'd make me feel

The way you made me feel

Let's keep it real my stomach in knots

The pressure creepin'

Middle finger to this lesson my life is tryna teach me

Remember when you looked me in my face and said

Dont leave me

I kept my promise

Now I'm left with nothin' but these reasons

I hate you, I hate you

Thats what I wanna tell her

Just lemme say it, I say it and feel a lil better

How could you do this?

Huh?

Claiming people changed?

Firing shots at my heart with some lethal rains

Its not fair, I gave you the world

And did some more

Now every night I ask myself

What I'm in it for

What am I meant for?

What was she even sent for?

Every single call on my phone I just see ignore

Feelin like I'm bout to implode

That wouldn't seem so bad

I hate to be that nigga where everything seem so sad

I know it could be worse

This is my life

You were my everything

You were suppose to be my wife

But forget it I'm blowing this tree into the sky

Every minute bout to cry

And you know the reason why

You the one who so omanis

Sucks I dont want you here

Cause you made it clear

Yeah

You made it clear. Her

Sippin liquor with my niggas

Gettin' twisted out my mind

Sleepin every hour of the day I never know the time

Blowin smoke up in the car just to get away from life

Reading scriptions on my phone

Getting close to Jesus christ

This ain't how I'm suppose to feel

I ain't ever signed for this

God I'm such a nice guy you know I was blind to this

You couldn't warn me?

Let me know she wouldn't love me back

Before I gave her everything

And walked into this heart attack

Like I don't understand people tell me this is your plan

Why couldn't she be in it?

I feel like she made me a better man

Someone I was proud to look back at in the mirror

Now I don't even know that person

I can't even hear em

Its just hard

I ain't tryna sound like I can't live without her

But I just can't stand thinking bout her

Every single hour

Every single minute

Every single second of the day

I just wanna go to sleep

And when I sleep, I see her face

And I wake up in the same spot she used to sleep in

A nightmare will probably be a better place to be at

I'm just so sick

I never been the suicidal type

But God help me as I lay my head on this pillow the night

I need, help

Maybe time

Maybe prayer

Whatever it is I need it

Cause this burdens hard to bare

And if you ever listen to this baby don't be scared

Its just life

Something that you'll probably never be prepared for

Don't cry, cuz I know how you are

I wish you well

I just wish you wasn't so far

As usual, I end up with the laws

Hear a knock on the door, make it quick, hug me off

And I've been here before, ive been here before

And I made it out, I made it out

Yeah

I've been here before, ive been here before

And I made it out yeah, I made it out yeah

Oooh

I made it out

I made it out, yeah

This ain't what I want

No

I'm still here