Debt

You didn't care enough to end it

So I did

You almost slept through the breakup

The sound of dorm dryers in the basement kept your head up

I said I'm done washing your sheets

You won't return my calls about my eighty dollars

Will I get it back?

Will I see you?

It's just a monetary exchange to me

If you mailed it it'd be the same to me

But I hope you put it in my hands

I suppose you don't owe me any more than the money

But I'd trade it in an instant for a sign

I know I'm not what you wanted

But was I for a while?

I had to drag your weighted blanket

Across campus on the coldest day of march

I had to get it out from underneath my bed

Left it at your door in a tote bag

Went to buy a pack of light blue cigarettes

I walked through traffic to the tidal basin

Smoked till I forgot the taste of you

I know it's reductive but it's true

I'm not trying to be cool about it

I wasted all that energy on you

I suppose you don't owe me any more than the money

But I'd trade it in an instant for all my time

I know you're not what I need

But I thought you were for a while