Ever

I've been racing for you honey

But you take your love

From under my feet

The very moment I arrive

I hold the invitation in my hand

You smile and I don't understand

When you tell me the writing ain't yours

You were the one thing I could count on

Even if your apathy was what I expected

Oh darling I waited and waited to feel your footsteps

And to hear your breath

But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for

CHORUS

You were ever in my mind

You were behind my soul each time

I held it to the flame

You were ever in my precious thoughts

I'd leave a room of angels

Just to be alone

If only to say your name

I never told you I needed you darling

Like a rose needs the rain

How could you possibly know how much

So I reach for your love

Like the moon and the stars

Ever in my sight

Ever out of touch

There's a spotlight of a holy kind

Think it comes from somewhere

Up in the sky or from some far off lovely place

But this light never ever ever shone on me

At least as far as I could see

So I sat in the dark and I watched you

Now I just cry to myself

When there's no one around

And I teach myself to walk backwards

Out of any given situation

Yes I can be graceful and try

Not to step on my train and

You don't have to say goodbye

But I'll be right here if you want to

CHORUS

Now I could paint your portrait

If I never saw you again

When I am old someone may ask me

If I ever loved

And I will speak but they won't recognize

My words, they'll say I'm telling lies

And maybe I am

Maybe I am

All I know is

CHORUS