Die Alone (feat. Kobe)

I roll over and go to reach for you, you're gone

This bed's empty without you

You said you're moving on

But I'm having some trouble getting there

But dwelling ain't getting me, uhh, anywhere

Fuckin' valentine's day

Fuck February, stuffed teddy bear, guts everywhere

Machete on the floor I smashed up every mirror

Yeah, how do I look?

You fuckin' just let me here to die didn't you?

Why didn't you respond yet?

I've written you five or six different times and

I'm gettin' sick and tired of always apologizing to you

I didn't do shit to deserve what you're puttin' me through

This couldn't be true, we can't be over

So violets are blue, roses are red

Why is it everything I do, I'm reminded of you?

Saw two white coffins in my dreams last night

I saw my lord Jesus with his hands pointing toward the light

Saw my old sweetheart she said, "Honey, I'm back"

Just so you don't die alone, just so you don't die alone

Guess I gotta deal with the fact that, you ain't never comin' back

Now every woman that I look at I'm lookin' for you

So I'm findin' something the matter with them

Excuse to not see anyone

Useless, rather pick up the phone, not at all, followin' protocol

I get bowled like bowling balls

Grow balls and go to call to talk, forget what I want to say

Damnit I'm drawin' blanks like I'm playin' hangman

I'm sick of playin' these games, I can't handle this heartbreak

It's makin' me wanna blow out my brains

Like birthday cake candles

Hang up the phone and I shake, I think I may have made a mistake

Can't escape the madness

Turn the radio on, I hate this sad song

But I can't even change the station

The same one's playin' on eight channels

I lay awake in shambles I'm startin' to hallucinate

And I'm havin' all these visions of us at each other's wakes

In caskets and suddenly I wake and that's when I know I

Saw two white coffins in my dreams last night

I saw my lord Jesus with his hands pointing toward the light

Saw my old sweetheart she said, "Honey, I'm back"

Just so you don't die alone, just so you don't die alone

Give me one more, bottle for the pain

Give me one more for the memories

Give me one more, make it taste like a steak

It'll help alleviate

It'll soothe this ache

Of trying to fake

That she's really, she's really coming back

And it's been a while now, but I finally realize how

Much reality sucks, but it's just something about our love

I'm still in denial now, dealing with the finality of it

And it's making me crazy thinking of the days we, spent

And how I'll never hold you again

And there ain't shit I can do about it

Now my head is overcrowded

With these tired memories and I can't seem to get you out it

And how the fuck do you sleep comfortably

Knowing what you done did to me, huh?

Did it even occur to you that I loved you,

Completely, deep and madly, head over heels for you

Was you and me, once used to be together forever

It was supposed to be us, but you crushed the dream

We was supposed to die together, and it's killing me so much

When I sleep I wake up dead, must be why I

Saw two white coffins in my dreams last night

I saw my lord Jesus with his hands pointing toward the light

Saw my old sweetheart she said: Honey, I'm back

Just so you don't die alone, just so you don't die alone