Not Gonna Cry

I know it's not supposed to be easy

Pouring out the bottled up feelings

But I didn’t think it would be this hard

Walking to school with a broken heart

And the jacket around my waist feels stupid

I don't know why the hell we do this

Saying I'm sorry like I’m the one

Who's picking us apart for fun

Why am I feeling like this?

Why am I feeling like shit?

Why am I all in pieces?

I don't even need this, oh-oh

Why am I on the bedroom floor?

With paranoia and painkillers

Washing away all these feelings

But I know, I know, I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking

You're a cigarette and I'm quitting

But I know, I know, I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

I’m not gonna cry for you

You smell of cigarette and perfume

No one fucks me up like you do

And maybe you thought I would play along

I'd rather be dancing on my own

Do you really think that I’m stupid?

Of course I heard all the rumors

But all of the grenades you threw

They just made me bulletproof

I'm done with feeling like this

Done with feeling like shit

Done with being in pieces

I don’t even need this, oh-oh

I'm done with laying on the floor

With paranoia and painkillers

Washing away all these feelings

But I know, I know, I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking

You’re a cigarette and I'm quitting

But I know, I know, I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you