Atoms

I know you're going soon

It's ok, I won't freak

Can see it in your eyes, you've been moving out for weeks

You've found a girl, she's so much prettier than me

She's much cleverer than me

She's so much happier than me

You want a lover who takes time over her looks

Not some stupid kid who's always wrapped up in her books

But can I help it if a sentence makes me cry?

And the pavement makes me cry

And the thought of you and I

Oh, just leave

There's nothing much I want to say

But close the door

You know how the atmosphere decays my bones

I feel the atoms on my skin

Oh, I feel the matter closing in

From my perch I see the universe as one

See the planets in their glory, slowly dancing with the sun

See my ancestors in monkey costumes fucking on the rocks

See the priestess and her brother and the farmer and his crops

All these sacred histories have led to this one day

When you face me on the stairs and say you have to go away

And time stops like ice where all around it once was hot

So don't begrudge a girl her books cos they're all a girl has got

They sit there now

The words unflinching in their strength

You see I only ever read

Cos I wish I was brave as them

And I know these words will never leave me standing on the stairs

Just like my frozen ancestors they always will be there

In print, just like your image on my heart

For ever like the planets light the dark

Just like our world is waltzing with the sun

Just like when this world explodes it makes another one

Oh you, just leave

I always wanted you to be free

But next time you see the planets try and think of me

And this moment on a stairway where I thought that I could see

All the atoms in your lover, she's much prettier than me

And can I help it if an atom makes me cry?

I can't help it if she's happier than I