Black Secret

that night when i said i loved you more than anything

but not a word came out of your mouth

an awkward silence arose from the heavens and tore us apart

i tried wishing upon a glowing star

but the star seemed to crash into the earth

and stop my heart and stop time itself

it seems the world just stopped spinning

threw me off its axis into space

to suffocate internally

and i hear every single persons voice in my head all at once

but yours is the loudest and the one that hurt the most

yet you said nothing at all it feels like my ears are about to shatter

from the insides and bleed out tears

with my eyes closed i stretched out my hands

and with my last breath i prayed to god

i asked him to just let me go it wasn't so much the suffering

it was how you shattered my heart

like a flowered vase dropped from the tallest skyscraper

but does it ever hit the ground

you watch me break apart

and you stand there laughing

but inside you must be hurting

you have to be

every day you watch me break apart

and you just stand there laughing

but i know you're hurting inside

you have to be

what if i fell into the sea

so softly and preciously

somehow i wasn't destroyed on impact

i couldn't face myself

i couldn't face the world without you here

you can't let go i can't let go