Melancholia

Face first into the new day

The lights are shining more

Than they ever gleamed before

Sweating swirling anxious as ever

The time it melts away

My nails grinding against floorboard

Pleading with it just to stay

My inaction become what define me

I feel pressure wearing me thin

Impatiently I'll await the day

When these tidal waves settles again

I wish that I had more time

And could be everywhere at once

My apologies for the distance

I've placed many miles between us

But the only thing I've come to get comfort in

Is the progression

Of the restless souls

Onward to a further destination

And yes the future

Thought it's dark from this perspective

When nothing will ever stay the same

And every dormant dream that I have imagined

Is brought to life but never as I planned

I want to drown in the daylight's radiance

Let the morning Sun into my skin

And feel the calm again

If only from the bright beginning

We were conditioned for the end

We've grown so self absorbed

As this life is ours eternally

We've grown so accustomed to settling down

And day to day

But this city moves forward with or without me

And everyone I love they are fading away

Thought it seems as if I'm sure

As if I weighed everything

I've decision that are haunting me

And I cannot evade

All I've ever know is blackness

Now even blackness fades

If I am the creator what is this void I have shaped

We always say

I will be seeing you again

But what if that day never comes

Then I'll be seeing you in the bitter end

But what if this life is all we're ever meant to become

I always seems to let my thought destroy me from the inside out

It's just a matter of time