Even Shadows Have Shadows

I stand alone

Burned every bridge over the troubled water

No longer hiding from my personality disorder

A stronger tide is coming, I've been running

trying to function fine with out my mind

climbing out this fucking corner

I was born a thorn away from the rotten petals

A forgotten rebel

craft in the absence of heaven's heavy hands to develop an evident level of benevolence

so it's probably better I sold my soul to the devil

This is a message to anyone I met that thinks they know me

Don't pretend to understand none of the issues that I'm holding

I was in a rush to grow up, look Mom no cuts

Just a stomach in disgust, and the fear

that I might go nuts this year

If I don't slow up I'll see you on my way

One day this shit'll kill me but I guess that it's OK

I've lost all faith in a world so full of hate

and I don't fucking love music I just use it to escape

I'm caught between wanting to punch someone in the face

and putting a bullet in my head to leave the human race

Everything takes its toll but there's no tolls I can take

I haven't yet found a good reason to be awake

Introducing the corroded bumps I hide behind my smile

I'm angry at the universe for the way she treats me now

And keeps me down,

stealing all my energy

I'm feeling like my enemy, concealing my identity

Not dealing with my tendencies,

I peel the skin and then I squeeze

The real imprinted hand cause he's

not human in this century,

I'm kneeling to the entity

Who built this penitentiary,

as filthy as a centipede

And guilt was in his sense cause he was willing to just let me bleed, While I wore a game face

In 10 years don't check for me I'll be in the same place

This planet's just an over-populated mental hospital

Each zombie walk around constitutes another obstacle

So here it is I'm finally coming out my shell

All 19 years of my life have been in conflict with myself

I'm insecure by every facet of my existence

From my addictions, to the condition I choose to live in

Who you kidding?

I suffer from excess anxiety

A product of pollution in American society

Stare into my eyes and see the hell that burns inside my mind

and I no longer have an ego I can hide behind

but I've been trying disregarding my insanity

Every form of art isolates us from humanity

But it's provoked against being force fed

so Fuck education for a decade and 3 years

of headaches from my peers

Cause now I realize I could have learned more on my own

They taught me how to know everything except my soul

Which is everything I need to grow

Everything that keeps me whole

Everything that ever meant anything to Eyedea

So I leave with golden hopes

to rip the leash that holds my focus

but the fact remains the same, I'm still bound by chains

It doesn't matter if your chain is 10 ft or 100 ft

The fact remains the same, you're still bound by chains

Some people say I've changed, and it's harder to relate to me

Good, I never liked you our friendship was make believe

I'm peeling the mask back and

revealing the rap that's been

Feeling my organs drilling short distorted portions

of morbid acid keeps the torture unfortunately crafted

interests to orbit my portrait and inflict my image with disorder

The minutes get shorter, the walls start to close in

Feels like the brain is hanging on by one clothes pin

I've hidden in the darkness for too long

I make it look all right but on the inside it's all wrong

I want life to change but I don't know if it can

for a man or machine or whatever the fuck I am

I stand alone burned every bridge over the trouble water

No longer hiding from my personality disorder

You want to die in my life?

then come and stay in madness' favorite little corner

Cause even shadows have shadows

and my secrets are eating me eagerly feeding

I scream in my dreams away but they keep on defeating me

Even Shadows have Shadows

Welcome to the dusty subconscious of an actor

Who murdered his childhood to stop the audience's laughter

Even Shadows have Shadows

How am I to break free from my fears

When I don't like what I see and I can't feel what I hear

Even Shadows have Shadows

So don't judge my book by it's cover

Cause my story's just fucked up as any other