Drowning In Gray

I sit in my room

To contemplate

All the reasons why

Why am I here, why must I live

Through these grieving times

Overwhelmed by hurt

Deep inside my soul

A quick ending to this all

I lose my self-control

With the noose clutched in my hands

You can't understand

This blatant travesty

Has become part of me

Drifting through the seas of sorrow

Condemned to

Fade away from my life,

From the lies

I place the rope around my throat

And close my eyes

Falling down towards the ground

The choking sounds

Finally I will see the way

Though something went wrong

I am still alive

Trapped in misery

Forever, in agony

They find me hanging

From a tree

Bleeding, pleading

Please don't set me free

Releasing the rope

From around my swollen neck

They bring me down

Refusing to let me rest

Why didn't they leave

Me in my misery

For all the world to see

They must hate me

They place me in a room

No windows I could see

They think insanity

Is what ails me

They test me everyday

But can't see the way

Into my barren mind

To see what they could find

I fall into a state

They call it catatonia

So helpless,

They have left me there

Never to awake

But they have made

A great mistake

Drifting through an endless sea

Condemned to

Fade away from my life,

From the lies

A dormant sleep that won't last,

To their surprise

I will awake from this state,

From this pain

Finally, they will see the way