Proud Of Me (feat. Shinigami)

What am I worth? I've been wondering

Since birth, have I done anything?

For what it's worth, I'd give everything

On this earth, to make you proud of me

Life is so long unless you die young

I’m 21 with this gun on my tongue

Mom, are you there?

Dad, are you proud?

Blood on my hands, call that a hand me down

Shaking at night

Crying alone

You're sleeping tight, safe in our home

These circumstances have got me so low

But this is the only way I've ever known

High tides crashing under the Moon tonight

And I know that nothing will be alright

And I hope that you get to see me shine

Before I'm at your grave crying out goodbye

I'm choking on words that I just can't describe

It's hard to lie when I look in your eyes

A shell of your former self

I know you're in need of help

Your health is declining as time passes by

I'm in denial and tensions are high

I just wanna know what went wrong

But I'm pretty sure this is my fault

The pills kill the pain within, they ease you inside

You're not the mother that sang lullabies to me

You give me anxiety

I know that this most likely just won't change

I guess it's better off this way

High tides crashing under the Moon tonight

And I know that nothing will be alright

And I hope that you get to see me shine

Before I'm at your grave crying out goodbye

High tides crashing under the Moon tonight

And I know that nothing will be alright

And I hope that you get to see me shine

Before I'm at your grave crying out goodbye