If You're Watching

I think I've found what I'm looking for -

Behind those eyes an open door -

That vacant stare which I adore -

I'm your slut, and you're my whore -

Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the pain -

Let us just makebleive it's yesterday again -

And mother if you're watching, look away -

And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away ... just look away - I think I found what I'm looking for -

So hit the lights and shut the door -

Listen carefully here's the socore -

I'm your slut, and you're my whore -

Spare yourself the aching heart -

And spare yourself the shame -

Let us just make believe it's yesterday again -

And mother if you're watching, look away -

And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away -

It sometimes make me sick inside -

Ashamed of a life that I must hide -

I know you'll never understand -

I'm sorry there's no wedding band -

But deep inside there's still that child -

Innocent in a world gone wild -

Obedient of your moral code -

Scarred by a Christian overload -

But still I live by truth and love -

I still have hopes in the above -

I still have interest in the cross -

But mother if your listening...... shut if off