Happiness Completely Forgotten

I am a child of the world

Where nothing matters and everyone hurts

I willingly fall into worthlessness

All thats left to feel is loss.

Still I battle against the consuming cold,

Only to drown in my own blood that falls.

Reason and meaning is replaced with destruction

So I cannot leave this state of mourn.

Endlessly stale my painful soul becomes

I only regret today and I only dread tommorrow.

Death is all that life can promise.

For nothing I burned until I was ash

I am beyond the end

I can never come back.

Now I just use life to tire my body out

And into sleep where the pain isnt felt.

But I cant escape this emptiness.

A fading serenade to sadness,

drowned out by the monotone hums of distraction.

As I live I forget who I am,

Never knowing why it feels like a loss.

All thats left to do is watch

To atleast witness the death of our misplaced beauty,

And wait, remaining unvisited,

By the ghost of meaning.