Alone

Once again, life is killing me

This time, I know there's no way back

Left alone, abandoned

Without any chance in tomorrow

You're gone forever

As I try to find a reason for this

Endlessly wondering why

You burned away all I was living for

Remembrances are all I still own of you

As I lie in my bed, drunk, confused

Flashes of our past passing before my eyes

Just like dying, endlessly dreaming of you

Dreaming of forgotten words and smiles

Trying to push away the need to harm myself

I feel is growing deep inside of me

I feel I will have to carve this pain upon my skin

Loneliness arises from the past

I will not bear this torment longer

As I try to hide the painful tears

Frustration increases in my soul

Reminding when I felt so high

Feeling nausea in my lungs, suffering

As I try to sleep to heal this madness

But this bed now seems to be like my tomb

Now I know it's all too late to save me

I keep on dreaming of past years

I can't feel that warmth anymore

You turned my existence in a terminal disease

I know all I once called life ends today

As you disappear forever, flying far away

All emotions inside of me are dead and gone

I can't stand this silence, but now I'm alone

I'm alone

Where have you gone when I needed you?

Never again