Smokes, Let's Go

Had my first smoke in 4 years today

I wasn't thinking about my voice

Or the things that my poor mother would say

If she found out that I made this choice

I was thinking about your face

And the look of disappointment

That you would surely cast my way

If you caught wind of the sails I've hoisted

I float away, path curling like the smoke off my tongue

Still hurt, emotions closed tight like my lungs

Know I said I'd never write about you again

But a promise ain't a promise

If we both have never held up our end

No, a promise ain't a promise

If we both have never held up our end

Twelve-packs and cigarettes

I guess they never help

Think I have some kind of penchant

For things detrimental to my health

I wish that things were different

I just wish we were still friends

'Cause if there's one thing I know

This just all goes to show

That a promise ain't a promise

If we both have never held up our end

I never should've went to that bar

I wish I never noticed your car

I shouldn't have waited, I should've just left

Now I'm outside my house

With a new cigarette to smoke again

Why couldn't I ignore your glowing skin and smile?

Why'd I let you grab my hand and lead me in?

I made a promise to myself to never let this win

But a promise ain't a promise

If I can't hold together both ends

No, a promise ain't a promise

If I can't hold together both ends

No, a promise ain't a promise

If I can't hold together both ends

I smoked my first pack in four years today

I mean, I guess it didn't really help

I think I have some kind of penchant

For things detrimental to my health

I guess I'm smoking again