Permanent Vacation

Once i used to read , once i used to think

Now i solve my problems

By ordering in another drink

I tasted life with reverence , i used to like myself

Today i´m throwing tomorrow away

Ruin my health

I need a revolution , a permanent solution

It´s an unbearable temptation

The permanent vacation

Got to do more , be more , creating a life

Un fulfilment broken dreams

Cuts me like a knife

Hell it´s just another hangover

Feeding my bitterness

It´s time to wipe away my tears

Mending my life in the process

I need a revolution , a permanent solution

It´s an unbearable temptation

The permanent vacation

You say you´re not sure

You say you need more time

I say what are you worrying for

Your wish is the same as mine

I´m not trying to change your life

I´m not trying to take control

Though your indecision cuts me like a knife

I´m not trying to invade your soul

All we really want is to be held

Through the night

For a moment put aside anger , fear and spite

Ever since we left paradise

It´s always been our fate

To dream of making love

Making up , making hate

Precious little moments building up to tears

While we gently put aside our jealousy and fears

Wondering if we found a love that last forever

Deciding she´s to loud , narrow minded or whatever..

All we really want is to be held

Through the night

For a moment put aside anger , fear and spite

Ever since we left paradise

It´s always been our fate

To dream of making love

Making up , making hate

My friend went away for the weekend

And he never came back home

He was found with his fathers gun in his mouth

And beside him his last poem . . .

When i heard the news

I just drove around in vain

My head was filled with questions

Anger , guilt and shame

Late one night i couldn´t sleep

So i turned my memory around

I saw faces and moves and places we´ve been

Some of that good life we found

I hear phrases form a dialogue

And i remember what we said

The way you brushed your hair form your forhead

And how you loved to make me mad

Keep thinking about the way you said goodbye

Was it really brave

I keep thinking about the way you said

Goodbye , was it really brave . .

I played a record again and again

From side to side

Then i put away the best part

Of a bottle of whiskey

And sat right down and cried

You were someone i could talk to

You were someone i could trust

Now you´re six feet under . .

Slowly into dust

Keep thinking about the way you said goodbye

Was it really brave

I keep thinking about the way you said

Goodbye , was it really brave . .

It´s been to much , i can´t take it anymore so bye , bye brain

To many things going on in my mind

I seek shelter from the pain

My head is spinning

My eyes are fallen out

My stomach seems to open and it´s making me shout

Somewhere i´ve lost track of what it´s all about

It´s an amazing sensations

My permanent vacation

My body and brain cannot be disturbed

But sometimes at night my voice

Can still be heard

Still can be heard , laughing in the asylum

There is no permanent solution

No easy way out of this confusion

No constant happiness

But you´ve got to comprehend

After every storm there lies a rainbows end

The answer is not a permanent vacation

Use your humor and your patience

No lasting sanity you´ve got to understand

After every sunset the world lies in your hand . .