Colorblind

I was wrong and I'm sorry for that

Things just haven't been the same since I got my mind back

And I try to hide the pain, but I'm never good at that

You can love me, you can hate me, I just want my soul back

And if there really is no God, then who the fuck is in my head

Planting seeds of deceit? I guess this must be the end

They say the grass is always greener on the other side

But every time I try, I go colorblind

I've been having fuckin' trouble sleeping

Every thought that's in my head

Is tellin' me to lose my grip and just end it

No God to pray to, I have nothing left

I thought this life was something more than itself

I'm going crazy, can't trust myself

So please just let me go and try to find hope

And if I lose myself, I know I'll always be alone