Difficult

My double vision is only amplifying everything he isn't

Till I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen

It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition

And I've been thinking if I move out this year

I'll feel my parents slipping

Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment

I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh, I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult

To name this feeling would take a hundred thousand years,

some kind of grieving, but over what I never had

So I've been speaking to my therapist,

I call her every weekend

I meant to tell you

how I've hated how we left things when it fell through

'Cause you were everything to me,

where did you run to?

Was it something that I said that coloured you blue?

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh, I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Difficult

Difficult

I've been drinking

And staying up too late reliving bad decisions

I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it

I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh, I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh, I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult