Carry a White Flag

Pull out my hair for fun

And run my nails right down my face

Wake up disoriented almost every single day

Wishing each dream I had was real

Finding out they're not and that I'm trapped in here

With myself in my room alone

You may think life is fun

But sometimes I don't see it that way

I started medication, weaned myself off

That happiness was artificial and fake

Don't you agree?

If my happiness has to be forced then it wasn't meant to be

I don't wanna force it I'm fine

Listen when I say I wanna die

With at least a quick release of every bad thing

That has ever happened to me

Take my hand to the end

I wanna see it all fall

I wanna watch my mind break with it

My mind is melting

From things around it

Like caskets buried

With dirt around them

I tried to climb out

But I fell back in

I'll put up white flags

To tell them I give in