Mum

I saw you in my sleep last night

Chasing after me, riding my first bike

Looking back, so mad you let go

Falling down, scraped knees

Graveled palms, standing there all alone

Your hands let go

Why did you have to leave? I know there’s a reason

Chasing new love

Now you’re someone I’m never gonna know

So sick of watching you running

So sick of grieving your loss

I used to pray that the summer sun

Could warm your bones and pull out all the drugs

I’m sorry mother

I know what you feel when you’re alone

Spent all those years fighting for love

But all it fueled was addiction

Your hands let go

Why did you have to leave? I know there’s a reason

Chasing new love

Now you’re someone I’m never gonna know

So sick of watching you running

So sick of grieving your loss

I used to pray that the summer sun

Could warm your bones and pull out all the drugs

See all the wrong you’ve done

'Cause it’s been three years and I’m still stuck inside your wake

I sat by the door

And I waited for you to come home, but you never came

But you never came

Do you still hear my younger voice? So raspy and pained

Guess you’ll never hear it nowadays

It’s such a shame, oh well

It’s a goddamn shame

So sick of watching you running

So sick of grieving your loss

You were my chrysanthemum, but all went wrong

You faded away like dust

'Cause it’s been three years and I’m still stuck inside your wake

I sat by the door

And I waited for you to come home, but you never came

But you never came