A Wish

And I wish to feel smaller under your sheets

I wish for the whole truth

Every time you speak

I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me

While I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem

You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans

Ignoring me the morning after

Isn't enough

And I swear I'm gonna cry

I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

And my blood won't stick

To the confines of my veins

And your heart

Is gonna tear mine away

And I wish to feel smaller under your hands

Though you seem satisfied as you slip mine

Down your pants

And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me

While you lift up my shirt after asking politely

And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be

Cuz it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy

I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up

But I swear I'm gonna cry

I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

And my blood won't stick

To the confines of my veins

And your heart

Is gonna tear mine away

And it's hard to find

What I want

When it's buried beneath the biggest rock

I could pay lots of money

To help lift it with machines

But I'm not sure you'd cooperate

Not sure you'd come clean

And I wish to feel smaller

Under your sheets

I wish for the whole truth

Every time you speak

And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me

As I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem

You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans

Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough

And I swear I'm going to cry

I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry

I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

And my blood won't stick

To the confines of my veins

And your heart

Is gonna tear mine away

Is gonna tear mine away