Growing Pains

I take a breath and breathe it out

Life has been a bitch holding onto me, I'm always freaking out

I don't play well with others, I panic in a crowd

And I'm quick to fall in love, that's why I'm always on the ground

So pick it up

Pop the umbrella over my problems

And understand I'll never be a man until I solve 'em

And sometimes I wish that I could go back home

Yeah crawl into my childhood dreams and be alone

And that would be everything-just another boy left with nothing

An object of security slowly losing its stuffin'

The Sumter Square slum king

Looking for another motherfucking chance to re-break the broken in is something

And that's the part I'm never going to get

Growing up is more than just a mind state and owning all your debts

Blowing out the breath I don't feel so tall

So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all

Anything at all

Tell me how, can I, grow to see the change in my life

I wanted, to overcome the battle inside what is owed to anxiety's hold

Is there a better way to figure it out?

I sweep it all under the rug

Cover up the loss found inside of me and wash it down with blood

I was born with an option and taught to swim a flood

But the older I become I start to humor giving up

So pick it up

Listen to all of the words in my head

And understand I'll have a shaky hand until they're said

And I don't know if I can get my mind state back

But I would travel to the end just to feel that grasp

And that would be everything, speak it through the can on the line

And prophesied the future from the twinkle in my eye

I could wrinkle up and die

In that room where the dreams started talking to me constantly and dancing through the sky

I'm alive, but growing up has proved to be a task

And left a couple daydreams broken down and smashed

Looking through the glass I don't feel so tall

So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all

Anything at all

Tell me how, can I, grow to see the change in my life

I wanted, to overcome the battle inside what is owed to anxiety's hold

Is there a better way to figure it out?