Half Empty

I swear to god that sometimes

I feel my life is going blah

From the women I wake up to

To the substance in my rhymes

And i've abused the truth by telling myself everythings fine

With all that negativity im ignoring, steadily climbed

And undescribed

But hell I know that im not perfect

God knows I cant keep a girlfriend

'Cause all of my problems surface

They feel I dont deserve 'em

'Cause their friends say that im worthless

Unappropriately portrayed in my words

And what about my music

Haven't been making it lately

The way that I view haven't been positive

Missing the fact that it's human to get confused

I bleed and bruise like all the rest of you

But verbalize my bloo inhale the punches love has thrown at me

And breathe it out my lungs like..

And this all has been a mess

I replaced the things I love and ripped my heart out of my chest like..

And im not so concerned with why

I'm just here to count the minutes till tomorrows sun can rise

Listen..

How many times do you have to wake up to stop dreaming

And I wrap my love notes in dust but never read 'em

Many times I just try to give up to stop leaving you

I have my heart broke and busted

Most of its been crushed but I blame it on myself

'Cause in the morning I dont see the right reflection

That foggy mirror after my shower, I see rejection

And im not saying im depressed

Seems to be a common theme today

These children try to hate themselves

But dont know why they feel that way

I got a real path paved and its been crazy

In a month i almost had the clap and possibly a baby

Relocated places credit companies chasin me

And new age taking on in it's efficient pile of changes

And I hate it 'cause its all so uncontrollable

Losing myself inside this broken emotion of no one knows

What's the point of ever falling in love

I find it's more about the pain than it ever was about trust

Find its more about breaking chains and being confound there that it rusts

Found that love is just a test to most of us who've given up

But if you think of it logistically

Then love is open eye

'Cause its everywhere you look

And its in every scar you hide

How many times do you have to wake up to stop dreaming

And I wrap my love notes in dust but never read 'em

Many times I just try to give up to stop leaving you

I have my heart broke and busted

Most of its been crushed but I blame it on myself